Eventually you'll meet someone right for you. And whether you share a minute, a month, or a lifetime with them is uncertain. But the fact that you found that person, even if for a moment, means more than the lifespan life allows you to have with them. If someone wants to be a part of your life they'll make an effort to be in it so don't bother reserving a space in your heart for someone who doesn't make an effort to stay. Furthermore you're still young. You have so much more stuff to live for and you really have to get your priorities right. I don't even want people to think you're following my footsteps. I do admit I made alot of mistakes in the past. So please don't try to be like me. I can't be the one tutoring you on life all the time you know. Grow up cause this is reality alright? Am so sure you're better than this. I love you and hopefully you wouldn't be crushing your mind tonight thinking about irrelevant issues. Have a goodnight sleep, beloved brother. We'll talk tommorow.

Look at the time now, I am still wide awake! Tried to toss and turn in bed hoping to sleep but I still can't. It's pouring rain outside and my mind is running in circles. Maybe that is the main reason why I'm still here blogging senselessly. I have too much free time on hand suddenly. I hate not having anything more to do. I hate completing things earlier than it's supposed to be. By right, things shouldn't be this way. I hate it. I hate everything concerning hate. Oh. My. God. I hate when my brain functions this way. I hate this and I've promised I won't hate anymore. I hate to hate. Period.

Life sure will get better once I'm back on track. Afterall, I do believe in future. A better one at the most. I just don't feel like being rude to anyone anymore.. It's very tiring having people to judge and claimed that you're being obnoxious all the time. To top it off, I just don't feel like arguing.

"A woman always has the last word in an argument. Anything a man says after it is the beginning of a new argument".

Do remember that. Goodnight!

"Trust is a fragile thing. Once earned, it affords us tremendous freedom. But once trust is lost, it can be impossible to recover. Of course the truth is, we never know who we can trust. Those we're closest to can betray us, and total strangers can come to our rescue. In the end, most people decide to trust only themselves. It really is the simplest way to keep from getting burned".

I'm super bored now. Fayzan's asleep and Firus's working. Feel like following my parents to fetch Bibik at the airport before meeting the rest of the relatives at Marina Barrage later in the evening. But on second thoughts, am so not in the mood to hang around watching the small kids splash water and flying kites. -___- I have much better things to do. Anyway, I miss fishing. Hopefully tonight's weather will permit us to go Pasir Ris to fish again.

Okay bye!

I know it's been long. I simply wasn't up for it. Not in the season to start fighting and arguing with the elders, yet. It might have been wrong of me to say that just as it's wrong of them to say negative things about me in public. I don't really care if you want to think that your kids are super perfect in most ways and all because I am a mother myself too. We all want the best for our child. I do get your drift. But the point here is, you humiliated me indirectly. I may have dented your reputation previously but that doesn't mean I don't want to change for the better which I can't deny is, time consuming. Whatever it is, I respected you all these while because I thought you were not like the others and that you have a much better understanding in what I'm going through but then, maybe I made a mistake.

Just so you know, I'm not a trouble-maker though in most cases I do seem like one. Thing is, I'm so sick of repeating everything and opening up past chapters. We all have our own lives to live so why bother so much with what I do or don't do? If you think I have it in me to destroy others, I would have destroyed you first you know. Everyone has their own mind and their own will. Don't put the blame on others if things or people changed. To know you are praying to God every minute and second of the day for my punishment doesn't light things up. I'm so sure God knows what to see, judge and do.

You are not in any position to make all the decision because the decision's been made. You've just got to get up and stop being desperate. I may be young but that doesn't mean you can step all over me. I'm sorry if I'm harsh but still, you should know better..

Until then.

Pictures from Friday's shopping trip with my best.

As it turned out, it was a lot more than the imagination. Worst yet, having to experienced it all in just one night. Seeing that you want my happiness all through that jealousy? My god. I didn't know you would go to the extremes just to prove it. So now I finally know where I stand in your life. Apart from that, Supper Club last night was fine. The crowd was normal.. Had great fun with my girls though things got cut short due to some unforeseen circumstances. Pictures from last night will be up soon alright? Anyway, am on one week off from work. Already have countless plans and am not so sure I can go with the flow cause I still need to get some stuffs settled first. One week already seemed long enough to some people but definitely, not for me.

On a brighter note, Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Valentine's Day to you lovebirds out there. May you guys enjoy your day filled with love always! Mwah.

I often felt my life ran like a movie. With some of the things that happened at home and at work, my life sure looked exactly the same like in the movies. But, in the cinematic rendition of my life, I was also one of the co-stars. My life was annexed onto other people's stories so, eventhough it was my life story, I depend on others to keep it going. My dream, if I can do anything, or be anything and money and reality weren't an option, I'd love to be a director. Cause I love to write my own script bring it to the big screen and direct it. I always wonder what it'd be like to sit there and see something that I've written and directed on screen.

On a lighter note, I've got a vague feeling about the course I'm going to take up for my diploma. Still thinking this thoroughly again because I don't want to make any wrong choice and then waste money. Not to mention, I can't be scraping through life each day with an average income. Definitely I don't want myself to end up like them. Whatever it is, I just want the best even if I'm taking the long route out.

Anyway, last night's movie "Santau" with Firus was awesome! I've never been that scared before and seriously, that was a first. The show's really freaking me out and to think back, I've yet to get over the old woman's face. -___-

Happy weekends people!